People don’t or can’t remember my birthday. As to myself, although I’ve strived to realize the significance of my birthday, all my celebrations was a well-wishing from myself. I’ve never celebrated my birthday like the other people did…throw a party, bunch of birthday presents…those terms are extremely strange in my world. Birthday, to me, has more sorrow meanings, especially when the past year seemed nothing more but an extra candle on the cake.      

Stop being so negative, keep yourself busy on studies in which I’ve found great difficulties. Not technically but mentally. I guess every season has been naturally assigned to different purposes, just like all places have their different functions. Home, I now find no hospitalities for studying, particularly when accounting is in presence. This society had most people recognized the importance of that subject, yet the subject had me to perceive the failures of its direction. Business is obviously not the same as it was a hundred years ago, not to mention the very original form of trading. We have accordingly developed tons of new subjects to hospitalize the evolution of business. Trading, for sure, has become much easier; nevertheless, it has deteriorated the depreciation of the things we own which inevitability leads to depressions. The story has also become true for knowledges. We learn stuffs we don’t need simply because we are too afraid of to be weeded out. Safety, in these days, is jeopardized by knowing too much. How much do we need to survive this world? How much do we need to survive ourselves?

   Unbelievable…After I’ve been through another “regular” weekend, Canadians still have no sympathies on my poor nerves to all holidays. The worst part was my ignorance of their holidays, reading plan was totally sabotaged by the closure of libraries and I ended up walking an hour back home thanks to the disappearance of all buses. To me, holidays have become synonymous of jails.

   Peel off the frustrations I had this morning, some comments on my MSN space somehow gave me comforts. Strengthened by these comments, I guess I’ll just keep myself occupied by writing and attempting of cooking. Professional, I’m surely dared not to address myself in that way, yet, eatable? I guess I’m half way there. I should have started to learn cooking earlier; it just never appealed to me the importance of cooking. I always thought restaurants could be my salvations or my shield to all the troubleness of cooking. It turned out Canada is nothing like Singapore, although we have a bunch of Chinese restaurants in Halifax, my “resentment” towards their food is as solid as rock. Maybe it was just me being too judgmental, or too picky on food, however, I’m done with the restaurants. Inevitably, tons of time would be sacrificed to cooking, not for pleasures but for the sake of my stomach. Look on the bright side, isn’t it a good way to kill time in all sorts of holiday?  

   In such a slack afternoon, listening to <<Tamas Wells>> accompanied by the vernal scene outside of my window…It soon will become another one of my dé ja vu memories. It is a pity that I can’t run today; I sort of pushed myself too hard yesterday. Paintballs seemed to have failed my hunger for sports and basketball I played afterwards seemed to have failed me, physically. I’ll have to listen to my body, maybe I can seek for the help from Homeopathic Remedy Silicea. For most people I believe don’t know what Silicea is. Not being a medical student, my knowledge of Silicea has been limited to its usage to relief fatigue. What makes it different would be that it stimulates the body itself to fight against diseases- Forgive my lame explanation. Anyways, I hope it works.

  P/s My appreciations to Vivian-Alice’s comments. Thanks! You are more than welcome to visit my site.  

It sounds like a silly question, I know, yet it very much indeed becomes an issue. After a cranky night of rainstorm, the morning sunshine makes my mood a too much contradiction. Struggling on this writing, struggling on a fight between my aspiration of going somewhere and recognize of an indigent situation. I’ve been thinking of a fishing trip for quite a while, however, my financial standing gives me no support what so ever. Beside, I’m experiencing some problems on locating the place. One thing I liked about Canadians was their intimacy with outdoor activities. Internet and computer are more like aliens to them. I don’t know if they are too stupid to understand the “benefits” of internet or we are too stupid to understand them.

Any advice on the fishing trip, like where to, when and most economical way for a fishing trip will be appreciated.

This season deteriorated my own indolence, other than that; it would be most people’s favorite. Being aware of the missing of diaries, I feel guilty to all my past blogs. Since my constant efforts were devastated by my recent indolent behaviors.

     Anyways, if I were to define the past weeks, I would use “finalize” which would be mainly regarding to the driver’s license and my settlement on summer courses. To my amazement, I passed the test at one try. Have struggled on my feeling of hardship or toughness of the road-test, the result of the test was a complete satisfaction to me. I guess too many bad drivers out there on the road on some levels makes my performances on the steering wheel some decent works. The necessity of jogging was enforced by my smoothness in driving. It might doesn’t make sense to most of people, jogging sharped my eyes and also my reaction. How I picked up ping-pong balls so quick was convincing evidence now the whole driving thing takes the benefits of jogging to a new level. Instead of running for 30 minutes, I decided to let the time “well wasted” on running for another 30 minutes.

    The subtext of school should be more efficiency, more regulated…For efficiency, I didn’t see any evidences of that. My driver’s license is still “suspended”, hopefully till this Monday. To sticking to my plan, I should have had my driver’s license by now. The whole thing is becoming not only time-consuming but also money-consuming. The rent of car in last week is still haunting me, I’m more that reluctant to have spent $90 on the rent. It almost tripled the regular price which would be only some $35…This incident has already become the hump for me renting a car again. Yet, I’ll have to get over it anyway, since I’ve already sacrificed a lot, it would be silly to give up in the middle way. This also stands true for other cases, you are better off to continue instead of giving up in the middle way. Although I have no opinion of the Economics I learnt in previous semesters, I found one theory of Economics usefully that is taking in account of opportunity cost. If I have waited  for a bus for more than 10 minutes, I am better off if I keep waiting till it comes disregard the possibility that I’ll have to wait for another 10 minutes and even more. Continue is always a better option if you have already started something.

    Pear off all the frustrations I had on matter of driver’s license, rest of the past week was pretty “normal”. If there was anything “abnormal”, it would be my solid efforts on cooking. Nevertheless, the “payoff” was a disaster. The agony in my stomach was one of the consequences of payoff. I must have used too many dried peppers, Holy Crap…I should have known better of the consequence. For today’s lunch, I have “Chinese style salty chicken”, Yup, I’m going for it. My experiences of failure should be of a great use at this time. Wish me luck!         

   They are everywhere, aren’t they? Last time was Cory, this time I “engaged” with them myself on the street last night. Like Cory, I didn’t go after them as well; something was pulling me back, even after being insulted by their “F” bombs and their animal behaviors. At that time, there was one word went through my mind that stopped me from fighting them, “Not worth it”. Let’s presume that I had taken them and beat them to death, what consequence could I have? I could be charged with murder, my whole life could be ruined…Seriously, guys, think before you take the swing, after you take the swing, there is no way you can take it back.. There is an old Chinese saying says “making concessions to avoid trouble”. Most people in these days found cowardice in such saying, yet I found courage in applying it to real life. It is all about self-control.

   That kind of things shall never occupy my mind for too long. My summer courses officially begun two days ago, I promised myself put some solid efforts on studies. For accounting, my unacquaintance with it suggests me to give no festinate judgment. As to the English literature, I’ve already perceived its potential to shape my writings.

    To be continued!            

Waiting for the laundry to finish, waiting for the key to “come back by it self”…I knew paint-balls was not some ominous thing, the missing of my key is still remaining a mystery and haunting me along. How did I lose the key…? I’ll never know! We people really hate forgetting stuffs, but for some reasons, we always ended up looking for all kinds of stuff we lose, from key to wallet. I dare to say nobody living on this planate never ever lost stuffs. I’ve been always telling myself to be circumspective, especially at the first moment when I realize I lost stuffs. Human instincts! Some say, time is the best medicine for all wounds, both physical and mental. I say time doesn’t really heal the wound, it makes us getting used to the pains.     

 Forget it, there is no turning back, I hope the landlord has another set of keys, otherwise, I’ll be so screwed. I involuntarily added one more thing to the schedule of this week. The only thing that cheered me was at the end of the day, I dug out a piece of real music from a whole pile of rubbish. When I listen to music, I don’t really care who actually wrote the song or who sang it, unless his music impresses me so much that I can’t help myself getting to know everything about him. The example for this kind of case is extremely rare. Enigma used to be the rarest of the rarest, yet after they published their last album in some two years ago, nothing had ever came out from them since then.  

    Now it feels more like running, I’m temporarily immune from all the injuries thanks to the new technique I applied to my jogging. A little tip for those who also like running, adjust your paces to the distance you run. I should have discovered this useful technique earlier; in that case, all my previous injuries and fatigues in legs could be avoided. Anyways, I’m pretty satisfied with the improvements I made on running. It had never appealed to me that I would be this close to beating up the best record. 21.24, I toped yesterday’s record by some 20 seconds, if I could keep this going, 20.13 becoming the history would be just a matter of time, and so is the starting of summer courses. I had enough breaks, didn’t I? So going back to school is some sort of salvation to me. Keeping myself busy, that’s exactly what I’ve been trying to do, like applying for a driver’s license and work permit…I also tried staying away from the internet and TV as long as I could. Yet, it was quite convincing that I’m not the “reading person”, although my roommate is always amazed by me spending lots of time on reading. I guess his judgment was severely influenced by the fact that most young people in these days have no desire to read, what so ever.

      There are finally a few things I don’t like about the apartment I hardly moved in. First is the floor, technically I would rather call it an amplifier. Could it be “more” annoying to hear people’s steps on the upper floor, not to mention the “stereo” guy who is always with all intentions to make the sell of his speaker. Second is the extremely deathly stillness at night, despite the spotlight in the football field occasionally comes at my comfort ness, the rest of nights are always filled with deathly darkness. Last but not least, laundry, the real pain in the ass. Who the hell came up with the idea of using tokens to operate washing machines? Thank god, why don’t you make it more “sophisticated”, like using internet or Wi-fi, would that be more “cutting-edge” technological? What was he thinking?  

      My excuses have successfully stopped me from writing diaries for almost a week, moving to a new apartment, driving license. The latter one is still waiting to be finalized, and would be the first priority in the coming week.

      It turned out driving is much harder than it looks. Although I have driven before, after some half year of estrangement of practicing, even a simple turning comes with lots of difficulties. The road test is as close as the eye can see, attending one or two driving courses could be the best alternative I have at this moment. Cause after all, driving is not a responsibility to be taken lightly. For my own safety, this defensive choice could significantly reduce the chance of accidents. Hopefully, I would be able to pass the road test and get my driving license by next week. But with a driving license doesn’t make much of a difference for me, since I don’t have a car and can’t afford one. To my self-compensation, there are still lots of people like me out there. Nevertheless, I was glad to have heard work permit is now available to international students. Finally, the government of Canada had itself straightened out.